Too much static. That is life lately. Too much to do, see, read, too much contact, too much stuff, too much...nothing. Makes me paralyzed. That is how I have been feeling in relation to my own self. My true self. The person I know that I am. I feel like I am stuck in this rut of "I will get to that" and "I mean to" and "next week I will"... And although I have had very productive days at work AND at home lately I still feel like a little mouse running on her wheel. And I wonder if the wheel has a damn thing to offer anymore except that it is the same kind of wheel I have always been on. Maybe it is newer than the last one, or a different color but still, same process, same wheel more or less.
This is not about work, or quitting your job and hiking across Australia or anything like that so don't get excited. LOL. It is more personal than that.
And more small. It is about one small part of me that has been a very big part of my life and I am coming to see it as less important, although still needed. More of just a cog in my wheel, less of the wheel that my world spins around. This is good. It is that recent post about the physical aspect of ourselves that I am working with. My body and soul are good with my plan. It is my mind
that lags behind, tied to old patterns. It is my mind that needs something else to do so that she will let go.
Having just returned from travel, which always tends to inspire me in one way or another and this was no different, I do generally take stock of emotions, feelings and where I am. One thing is for certain. I need to take FULL advantage of everything the inner season has to offer. This little mouse has a mind wheel that is spinning too fast, too much, too far away from what makes me feel at peace. I need to get off. My mind, needs to get off this particular wheel and be a productive portion of the person I am.
My study book arrived while I was gone. My fun book as well. The leaves are falling at an amazing and colorful rate. The ponies are getting fuzz and the air is crisp. A perfect time to redefine priorities and immediate futures. I plan to slow down, step off the treadmill of crazy and take full advantage of the season.