Well, the Balance Cleanse has been successfully completed. I awoke today to fresh snow, Sam will be home this afternoon and I feel like I have accomplished much in the last week. Some of it was even unexpected and more than I originally planned. I did a day by day little diary in the Living Well blog.
But, overall – WHAT did I learn? What did I end up focusing on more or less than I had planned? What were my successes? What do I need to rethink?
First, my dreams were “off” and I could barely remember them. I am not sure why as I was drinking my favorite dreamy teas and open to them but… Maybe just the change of rooms or the fact that I was meditating every night changed my sleeping habits? I would think it would have been just the opposite and my dreams would only be more vivid and interesting but that ended up not being the case. In any event, dream journaling is a habit for me now so that isn’t going anywhere.
I slept wonderfully though. I don’t think I had fractured sleep any night. I had the dog to contend with – he is a bit of a bed hog. And on the last night the cat decided he wanted to play at 1:00AM. But, for the biggest part of the week I slept like the dead, woke feeling rested and not once did I set an alarm. I woke automatically between 5:30 and 6:00 and felt like it was “time”to start the day. One weekend day I actually slept in. It really is a different feeling to wake when your body wants to. But, I realize THAT hinges on sleeping when your body wants to. Something not many of us are good at.
No TV! Yah! This one was easy. So friggin easy. I did watch TWD on Sunday night but that was it. Gosh it was SO freeing. I almost wonder if the damn thing works anymore. LOL. I guess I’ll find out later today when Sam turns on some loud, annoying basketball game. LOL.
My daily meditation was a success! I totally feel like I could incorporate this into “real” life now. And I believe that I may actually be getting better at it.
Everything more detailed is covered daily in the Living Well blog. What I did not cover there and I find to be MOST important as a reminder to myself and possibly something we all should consider in spending time alone – I was reminded of who I AM.
It is like this – we live with people we love and are surrounded by coworkers and friends almost every single day of our lives. Their energy has an impact on us that we don’t even think about or take into consideration. But it DOES impact us and the way we view and react to the world. I have been told by two professional practitioners at this point that I have a very psychic personality. That personality is very open to the energy of others. It gets bogged down by it. It gets invaded by it. That energy will begin to mute my own energy and change my outlook and actions if I am not careful to manage it. I had never really considered this before being outright told. I knew that I was easily affected by the moods of others AND by crowds and psychic stimulation, lots of noise, etc. I don’t like to be in crowded places or situations where people are running around like ants. It makes me feel drained and overwhelmed. You can see why I am only a fan of cities for brief visits! But, I never considered, daily and then building upon that, the effect of this energy on me and my mental health.
Being alone and experiencing myself for a whole week reminded me that I need to guard my outlook and myself, my moods, my perspective. THIS is the key to contentment and so many other things. If you,
yourself, have your own mental house in order, no one can penetrate that, not even the numbskulls you encounter on a daily basis.