Welcome to the newest blog page at Gillian Cheyse on-line. We are in the process of doing some remodeling here in the hollow, and as part of that, building on to our expanding boxes of thought and written meanderings.
So, a liberation blog. Liberation from what? Glad you asked. Liberation from fear, sorrow, guilt, from social norms (if indeed one needs to be liberated from social norms I'm sure some of us don't), from expectations (self imposed or outside), the past, the perceived future, from despair, sadness, hopelessness, anger, uncertainty (goes along with fear because really, isn't everything technically uncertain?), from fodder, pain, mindlessness, abuse, personal shortcomings and other things that go bump in the night...
The list could go on forever and my point is ~ liberation from whatever it is that holds a us back from living an uncommon life full of one's own individual soul. So full we are drunk on her and unafraid of what she wants (or doesn't want). So brave that we ask her first if this or that serves her instead of automatically acquiescing because it is learned, habitual and expected.
Each year at Winter Solstice I try to meditate on a word to take me forward and into the coming year. This year that word is liberation and the task is daunting. When I think about everything I've listed above I realize that their are a million things I need to leave behind in order to continue to grow. So many comforts I need to shed, so many useless things that no longer serve me. Sometimes I wonder if I walk away from them all, will there actually be anything left of me? Am I simply made up of all the things I fear, all the guilt that drives me? Am I Catholic and just don't know it? Honestly though, there is an enormous amount of it all and I fear (there is that word again) that if all the things I'm desperate to be rid of are actually gone I'll just blow away like burned paper...
But, oh well, right? None of it matters if we aren't living a life that is fulfilling to us. Whatever that is, means, whatever we have to do to make that so should be the priority.