Well, fall is upon us! Leaves are starting to flutter through the air. The days are getting shorter and this is obvious already as when I left early for work this morning it was still partially dark. The magic of nature is something I am fascinated with and feel very fortunate to be a part of. It will become clear why I feel this way so strongly as this post goes on but I have mentioned in the past that my connection with the earth has always brought me peace of mind.
Sometimes it brings sorrow too but I always hold fast to the earth and the creatures and beings upon it. Plants, trees, bugs, deer, rocks, rivers, oceans...pretty much everything on earth fascinates me except people. People do not fascinate me at all, except to sometimes mouth the overused - really? LOL.
Last fall I developed an interest in the Druid path through a friendship that means a great deal to me and also my ever-growing inability to relate what I feel has become the "modern Pagan" mindset as a whole. My friend described to me what is referred to as the Ovate aspect - that earthy, seeing, seeking
creature fascinated with healing, herbs, divination, animal and nature premonition. Someone able to conceive of time and space, cycles of life and death and basically the dark and light, predator and prey, the beauty of the All and the Nothing... I felt like there was something there for me. Maybe not as an outright complete shift in my focus but as a supplement to my learning.
Because the feeling of being the shadow, the other, the hidden, the earth child ~ this is very close to me. I have always felt very drawn to the water but the earth is where I am firmly rooted. I belong to the earth and what is here. I like the smell of dirt. LOL. I like digging in it and I don't mind it on me. I think it represents work and worth. The earth, I was told as a child, is the Devil's playground. And since I thought that Christianity was my only option at the time I felt sorry for that because the earth, to me, was SO beautiful and special and I LOVED it so much. How could earth belong to someone so supposedly horrible?
Yes, yet another reason I asked bad questions in Sunday school and the teachers hated me. Their second mistake I suppose was insisting that animals did not have souls. LOL.
So that supplement has served me well and furthered my love for the ground I walk upon and the things I share this world with. At this time, on the verge of a season, I feel like something inside my framework of belief has shifted even further though. My beliefs are more base, more simple, more upsetting to others now. They are less complicated, less glorified and probably less popular.
I'm walking into darkness with a new sense of nothing and everything and time will not stop. So neither will I.