I gotta say that it took me by mostly complete surprise to realize that somehow, at some point in my life, in comparison to many of the people that I know, I became the stable one. Steady Eddie. The girl with the calm, cool, collected life. The quiet, no drama person that finds herself nodding her head while her ears are filled with the latest personal gossip, professional malfeasance and general WTF is this person thinking behavior...
I am in awe of this reality and at the same time can look back and admit that despite my best efforts at drama (LOL everyone is doing it that means it must be cool right?) I have always been more or less an observer of this particular human behavior rather than an active participant.
I think that Inara once said it best. I just don't like complications. Drama brings with it a slew of complications and really, who has time for that sort of thing? Yet, even if you are not a fan, you get sucked into other people's drama just be virtue of breathing these days. You can't even say good morning to someone without getting a whole litany of woes and impractical advice lobbed your way.
It is utterly exhausting. I was actually conversing with another individual who is trying (also) to cut down the negativity in her life and therefore cut down on her own negative reactions and thoughts as well. She pointed out that she does not wake up in a bad mood. She doesn't open her eyes and think, oh god, everything is SO f8cked up I think I'll be negative today! Quite the opposite, her eyes are bright and there is a smile on her face right up until the moment she...encounters the rest of the world.
LOL I laughed but there is truth there. Most of us with sharp tongues and wicked thoughts are not truly negative people. I think we are just simply not dull enough to NOT be impacted by the world. There has to be a way to shut it out just enough. There must be a way to be small. Small like I was talking about in another post. Small, focused, in my own universe of my own making and not subject to the craziness of the one I have to operate in on an almost daily basis.
I feel like mastering this would be the next level of peace that those of us seeking truth really desire. Beyond world peace even, LOL, personal peace is of utmost importance. So, I'm contemplating how to go about this and right now it is consuming my thoughts.
I must figure it out or keep praying for the zombie apocalypse!